June 22, 2007
Dreams - My other reality
(It must have been the chat I had with whying that lended fodder for this dream...)
It was the house that my grandfather used to live in when he was still around. In this dream, he was still very much alive and kicking. There were my grandfather, my mother, my x-boyfriend and I.
There was a marathon going on. In the neighbourhood. My grandfather wanted to go join in. He urged for us to join him too. We weren't very enthusiastic about it. Instead, we thought we would go and play basketball. I was still dating Desmond. It appeared that we got together (again?!?!). But how come I didn't look very happy in the dream?
Anyway, he wanted to play basketball. And my mum said she would go along too. Just to kill time. We were going to play basketball at the community centre near my old house.
I don't know what we were waiting for but my mum decided she'd go ahead first. That left Desmond and me in the house. Again, I don't know why I didn't look very happy. Then, I decided to tell him about me having had a x-gf.
So, I did. I told him that before him, I was in love with a girl. He was horribly (and understandably) shocked. He was too shocked to say anything. So, I took the chance to continue. I knew he was a christian and probably found this unacceptable. His girlfriend had a x-gf? Sounds like something to ask God for forgiveness eh?
Instead of feeling sorry for dropping the bomb, I told him to think about it and decide if he could deal with it. And if he was not ready to deal with it, then let's not waste each other's time.
And then, after saying that, I realised that perhaps I really didn't care too much about the relationship. No wonder I didn't look happy. I also realized who I really wanted beside me was not him, but her. My x-gf.
Then, I sort of woke up. Again, to the barking of my dogs.
If I had a choice, I don't really like dreams like this. It makes it harder to not remember.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:01